Last Words

Sophomore year has by far been one of my roughest years yet. I have been through things this year that I would have never dreamed in my worst nightmares. As if the constant stress of school isn’t enough, I have had to deal with the loss of two of the most important people in my life. Losing my Granddaddy and Aunt Debbie has completely changed my life. Not only have I doubted myself to the point of despair, but I have doubted my faith- one thing that my Granddaddy and Aunt Debbie would not tolerate. However, I have also leaned on my faith like never before this year, and that scares me a little; I’ve never really been one to depend on others. However, leaning on God has helped me like never before. I find myself constantly asking why He took them away, but then I remember all that He has still blessed me with, all of the people that are still here. I cannot even begin to count the number of people that I have pushed away this year, and I have no one to blame but myself. I truly do have the greatest family and friends that a girl could ask for; they mean everything to me. Exams are also coming up and I have just found out that I tore my ACL. I hate that I have  to have surgery, but I hate the thought of not being able to use my knee more. I can’t imagine not playing soccer, marching in band, or even just swimming. Although this year hasn’t been the best, I sure do have a lot to be grateful for. I have learned that faith can take you a long way, if you have it. The challenges and trials that I have been through this year will only help me grow into a much stronger person in the end, into the person that I want to become.