Inside My Head

There are so many things that run through my mind every day, most of which I can’t even begin to explain. If someone looked into my brain, they would be confused. I even confuse myself sometimes. I am going to try to explain some of the things in my head.

I am usually thinking about grades and school for the majority of the time. I worry over grades so much that sometimes I become downright exhausted just from worrying. The sad part is that my parents don’t put a lot of pressure on me about grades; I put a lot of pressure on myself. How I do in school now reflects most of my future. I have to make good grades to get into a good college to make something of myself. Just the thought of failing scares me.

I am always thinking of my family and friends. They are some of the most important things in my life. Without them, I wouldn't be who I am today. I am so blessed to have the family and friends that I have. Peyton, Hannah, and Cody have really been there for me lately and I have no idea what I would do without them. The last couple of months have been pretty bad, but they all seem to make it a little better. I love my family and friends so much.

Granddaddy and Aunt Debbie are probably what I think about most. They are in every single thought that I have.  How could they not be? I am so used to seeing them almost every day, and now I don’t see them at all. That isn’t exactly a minor change. I will always remember the memories that I had with them; I will never forget them. 

God is always on my mind . I try to always keep good faith because without it, well, I honestly don’t know where I would be in life. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that I will one day see my Granddaddy and Aunt Debbie again in Heaven. I believe that He has a plan for me and that everything happens for a reason, even if I don’t understand it. He gave me life and I owe Him my life. I will forever worship Him.