I Don't Want to Grow Up

Do you ever wish that life sometimes had a stop, rewind, or fast-forward button? Well I do, all the time. When I was little, I couldn't wait to grow up, but now that I'm older, I just wish that I could go back to being little again. I miss having that feeling that everything is going to be okay no matter what. I would give anything just to go back to my childhood, if even just for a day, but this is life and we always want what we can't have.

I don't know why, but when I was little, the world just seemed like such a better place. I didn't have to worry about people judging me or any drama. My only worry in the world was whether or not I wanted chocolate ice-cream or vanilla ice-cream. My cousin and I were outside together every single day from sun up to sun down. We would spend all day at my grandparent's house and then cry when we would have to come home. Today, we have all of this technology and kids hardly ever go outside to play. I can't say anything though or I would be a hypocrite because sadly, I've given into technology as well. Another thing that I miss from being little is the television shows and music. I mean come on, what in the world are they playing on the T.V. now and the music.. oh my word. What happened to movies like The Little Mermaid and Aladdin or music like Backstreet Boys and N Sync? That is what I would consider good. I honestly feel bad for the younger kids today who have to grow up watching and listening to today's T.V. shows and music.

The thing I miss most is my childhood memories. I cherish them every single day. Recently, two very special people in my life have passed away. I wish I could just go back in time and relive all of the memories that I had with them. I miss them so much everyday and I just wish that I could see them again. If I could go back, I would tell them how much I miss them everyday and how much I love them. You should cherish every moment that you have with your loved ones because there is no promise of tomorrow and that's a fact.

Truth be told, I'm scared to grow up. I'm scared of the thought of losing my parents or my sister, moving out, and being on my own. Right now, I have it really easy. I'm with my parents, I don't have to worry about house or car payments, and I don't have to worry about a job. I'm not saying that being a teenager isn't hard, because it is, but when you think about getting out into the real world when you're older, it gives you a lot to think about. We just have it so easy and so many people don't notice that until they get older. A lot of times, it doesn't hit that person until right then and then it slaps them right in the face. I know that I have it really easy right now, but it's not going to last forever, so I think I'll enjoy being a kid for as long as I can.