What Makes You Come Alive?

I'd be lying if I said that I didn't think long and hard about this question. However, thinking about it now, I realize that I have definitely been over-thinking it. What makes me come alive? There are many things that makes me come alive, the main one being faith. Having faith in God is the only thing that keeps me going in life; it is what lets me know that life is real. Every day, there are bad things that happen, but getting through those things is a lot easier with God. There are some days in this world where I feel completely numb and worthless, but it is God that brings me hope; He is the reason that I am alive. I have mentioned in one of my blogs before that faith is what saved me and I wasn't exaggerating. Without it, I wouldn’t be where I am today. My faith is my motivation in life. When everyone else walks out of my life, God doesn’t and He never will. His love for me is unconditional, just as my love for Him is.

Music also makes me come alive; it is my passion. I love when I listen to a song and it explains exactly how I feel.  It doesn’t matter if I’m happy, upset or even just giggly… there’s always a song for it. It’s amazing to me how one song can sum up the way that I’m feeling. When I am feeling at my most vulnerable, I turn to music. It expresses my feelings in a way that nothing else can; it’s my release from all the troubles of life.

Another thing that makes me come alive is seeing others happy. There is nothing that I love more than seeing other people happy, especially my loved ones. Not only that, but I love making people happy. I don’t care how unhappy I am because seeing others joyful is enough for me. Just seeing two people happy together in a grocery store pleases me; it’s the small things that I enjoy. I love the smile that my one and a half year old cousin gives me when I chase her around the living room and I love seeing how happy my Grandma is when all of our family is together. Moments like that are what I live for. They make life worth living. 

Fraction Friends?

“You’re the average of the five people that you spend the most time with.” –Jim Rohn

I agree with this statement made by Jim Rohn. If you think about it, the people that we spend the most time with really do have an effect on us. How can they not? There are unique and special things that I love about each and every single person in my life. Choosing the five people that I spend the most time with is so hard for me, mainly because of the fact that I have such a huge family and the fact that I could probably write about my entire band class. I have tried to narrow it down though. 

Mama and Deddy: Of course, being my parents, I spend the most time with my Mama and Deddy. Most people say that I am a spitting image of my Deddy, with the way I look and the way I act. There is never a day that he doesn't have a smile on his face and even in the worst of situations, he tries to find the good. As for my Mama, I definitely got my loudness from her. The thing that I envy most about my Mama is her selflessness. No matter how bad things are for her, she always puts everyone else first. Together, they have taught me to always treat others with respect and to treat everyone equally. Not only that, but they have taught me to keep a strong faith no matter how hard life gets and to always trust that God has a plan.

Justina: Being six years apart, my sister and I didn't really become all that close until last year. I have learned so much from my her. She has such adamant strength and no matter how many times life knocks her down, she just keeps getting right back up; that's what I admire most about her. I don't care how bad the situation is, she always keeps going. I hope that I can be half the person that my sister is one day.

Kimberly: Kimberly is my first cousin, but she has always been more like a sister to me. She has a heart of gold and she would do anything for anyone. She has always been like a role model to me. Even when I was little, I always looked up to her. She has always taught me to always stay true to myself, no matter what others think. I can definitely say that I got my bluntness and sarcasm from her. She has always been the type of person that is straightforward. She tells you what you need to hear, not what you want to hear; that is one of the things that I love most about her.

Grandma: My Grandma is one of the most kindhearted people that you will ever meet. Even though she can be stubborn as a mule and just plain out hard-headed sometimes, I wouldn't have it any other way. My Mama and Aunt Debbie definitely got their selflessness from my Grandma. She always worries about other people, so much that she forgets to worry about herself most of the time. Although she is very opinionated at times, she means well. My Grandma is such a strong person and she is  a huge part of he reason why I am who I am.

Peyton: Peyton is my best friend. She is not afraid to speak her mind and is one of the most caring people that you will ever meet. She is the type of person that you can trust with absolutely anything. She has taught me that sometimes it's okay to lean on other people and that I don't have to handle everything on my own. I don't care what it is, she is always there for me in a heartbeat. She and her family are like a second family to me. As corny as it sounds, she has taught me the true meaning of friendship. She is always there when I need her, and so are Hannah and Myranda. All three of them are so down to earth and I love the fact that I can act like a complete idiot and they still love me. Hannah always makes everything better with one word. Even on my worst days, she makes me smile. I love our friendship because we are always so sarcastic with each other. Myranda, or cutie as I like to call her, is the most care-free and unique. I love how she is her own person and how she never cares of what others think. Just having her around is great because she is always there to listen to whatever you have to say. Peyton, Hannah, and Myranda are my best friends and they always will be; it's simple as that.

Ms. Wright: I realize that I have went well over my limit of five people to talk about, but I just couldn't help myself. Ms. Wright, you have made such a huge impact on my life this year. Do you know why? Because you care, and you don't just act like you care, you actually do. That means more than you'll ever know. You have taught me that it's okay to be myself and that I shouldn't care about what others think of me. I really do think that you and I share the same brain sometimes because you understand everything that I say. I honestly don't know what I would do if I had never met you.

Although I am my own person, each of these people make up apart of me. Whether it be Kimberly's sarcasm, Grandma's stubbornness, or my Mama's loudness.  I know that God has put all of these people in my life for a certain reason. They all mean the world to me and I think that it has made me a better because being around them has shaped me into the person that I am and the person that I want to become.